Yesterday, my Mom, my cousin Haley, my aunt Shelly, and I all drove to LAX
We were dropping of Haley at the Airport. Back to Humboldt she goes!
We stopped at one of my favorites, “More Than Waffles.” Service gets an A+!!
I ordered 2 eggs, 2 pieces of bacon, and multi grain waffles
I ate every bit, plus some fruit, plus some of my Moms pancakes, plus some of my aunts potatoes. I had to try everything! Plus, I’m going through this thing right now where since I am paying for my own food, I am like a scavenger when I go out to eat. No food left behind. This is a habit I will get over soon enough… I hope!
I didn’t document anything else yesterday. Since this blog is 100% about honesty, and sharing REAL life things with other girls, I will go ahead and say that I am struggling in the food relationship/body image area right now
This verse has really been helping me lately
“The fear of human opinion disables; trusting in God protects you from that.” -Proverbs 29:25
I wrote it on my mirror, to remind me each and every day
This struggle started when I moved out. At first, I was so busy that I was hardly eating (only the first week). Now, it’s been that I’ve been so busy that I have hardly been working out. I went to the gym yesterday and did 30 minutes of cardio, but I am used to going most mornings and doing about an hour of cardio or body pump. Doing nothing has really thrown me off, and although I don’t have a scale, my clothes are feeling “tight.” Now, I am guessing that all of you girls can agree with me that when your clothes feel tight, it doesn’t feel good… well, it really doesn’t for me, and I have really been struggling with a battle in my head going from “okay, time for a diet,” to “okay, time to grab the scale from your parents house, let’s lose some weight!” Although this battle is going on, I haven’t given in to either, and I am not planning on it. I am trying so hard to stay strong, leave the scale out of my life, and keep the word diet out of my vocabulary.
That being said, I believe that what I need to do for myself is to take a few days off from blogging, and just focus my mind back to having a GOOD relationship with food. I started this blog because that’s where I was at, and I wanted to share it with all of you. I was OKAY with eating ANYTHING that I wanted. I had ZERO items listed on the “forbidden list,” and my portion control was the best it had ever been. I was okay with saving food for later, and I never felt the urge to finish everything on my plate because it was sitting there staring at me. It was the relationship with food that I had always dreamed of, and I knew I wanted to share it with others.
I want to get back to that point. I want to give my mind a break, give myself a break, take a few days, wait on some things, and come back with a fresh new direction for myself, and my blog. I want to do what is best for me, and what I feel will be best for my readers, and I know that if I myself don’t feel in a healthy mindset, I sure don’t want to influence others with that. My only goal has been ONLY to make other girls feel GOOD about themselves, to love themselves, and to help them also be freed from the bondage of dieting.
I started my day off with this bowl of Oats… they were so pretty I still had to take a photo. I hope you all have a wonderful day, I will be back in 3 days to check in. I appreciate all the love and understanding through this blog. I really hope that my mind freshens up and gets some rest these next few days. I wish you all much love for your bodies & minds!
What do you do when you get in a funk like this?